Thursday, April 15, 2010

Emotional Day in Gym Today...

Today I was in the gym as usual, it was shoulders day. I was doing something similar to shoulder press but with the cables not the dumbbells, I had my Ipod on and a U2 song came on, not just any song, my Dads favorite song. I don't know what came over me but tears just started streaming down my face. Luckily my face was drenched in sweat so nobody could really tell that I was crying. I miss my dad so much, its been 10 years since he died but a day doesn't go by that I don't think of him. I think part of the reason I started crying was because my Dad always wanted me to lose weight,but he never got to see it happen. I wish he was here to see what I am doing, to see all the hard work I am putting into this journey.

My Dad raised me, after my parents divorced when I was young my mom originally had custody of me. But after a few years she told me she was getting remarried and I told her if you do then you have to let me go live with my Dad, and she did. We were best friends, we did everything and anything together. You know most guys out grow kissing their Dads but I never did, even when I got to high school I would always kiss him on the cheek when ever we met or parted ways. I remember my football teammates used to make fun of me for it lol But I didn't care. My Dad would always rub his stubbly cheek against mine, it was like our thing. I would do anything to feel that again.

Today my Dad pushed me in the gym, tears were in my eyes during the rest of my workout but in the end I shattering all my shoulder lifting records. It was a great feeling.

I love you Baba, I live my life by always doing what would make you proud and never doing anything that would make you ashamed of me.

Picture of my Dad and me when I was young :)





I will post some of my dads favorite U2 songs below, enjoy them :)





12 comments:

Anonymous said...

This is a very touching entry. I imagine the pain never really goes away fully after such a loss. Thank you for sharing your story.

Tishia said...

Wow. That brought tears to my eyes. What a touching post. Love the pic of your dad and you!

River said...

That photo is so beautiful... I managed to hold strong reading the post but seeing you two together made me cry. *HUGS*

Heather Iacobacci-Miller said...

Thanks for sharing this. Love the photo.

Jessica said...

So touching! Thank you for sharing.

erintakescontrol said...

Amazing post! I love the photo of you two - reading the post was extremely emotional and heartfelt, but when I saw that photo, my eyes welled up!

Thank you for sharing your emotional gym moment and for conveying the depth of the father/son relationship with all of us. Your Dad is proud of you, no doubt. Rock on, man! :-)

AthleteComes said...

This is very touching!!! I am happy that you still hold on to the memories that you and your dad shared, it is very important. Your dad is watching you lose weight, from above. Keep doing an amazing job!!

BTW, this post made my eyes tear up, thanks for sharing!

Janessa Mondestin said...

Wow! *wiping teary eyes* That takes strength just to share that. There are so many layers to that - awesome post!

{ALL} for a Better Life said...

Thanks for sharing that, ya know what though? Your dad is so with you on this journey and he sees you. You are making him proud!

Kelly said...

Isn't it crazy how music can envoke such emotion and memories. I think it is great you shared your experience with. Your Dad is with you every step of the way on this journey and is already so proud of you.

Sharon B. said...

Your dad is proud of your progress! It takes a lot to share an emotional break through like that! I love that pic of you and your dad. Too cute! Thanks for sharing, and keep pushing!

Maha said...

And let the tears start flowing....