Sunday, April 25, 2010

How being laid off was a blessing in disguise!

So last may I was laid off from a job that I loved. At the time I didn't agree with my lay off, they kept other engineers who I knew were not as good as me. My direct supervisors didn't agree either. They protested to the VP that they needed to keep me because I was a vital asset, they showed him all my performance reviews which were all flawless. But no dice, a VP who barely knew me decided that I was going to be laid off.

When my project manager called me into his office and broke the news to me I was initially crushed. He told me that I would finish our current project, which still had 2 months left of work and then we would part ways. Initially the VP didn't want want anyone to tell me that I was being laid off until I was finished with my project, but my project manager insisted that he be aloud to tell me immediately so that I could prepare myself for what was coming. Me and my PM had been working together for over a year and had become very good friends. I will always be thankful for all the things he did for me, by him convincing the VP to allow him to tell me the news early I was able to financially get myself ready to be laid off. Me and him are still great friends to this day.

So I finished my project and I packed up my things and went on my merry way. I weighed 480 pounds the day I left that job. Deep down inside I was pissed at myself for letting myself get to 480 pounds. Being overweight destroyed myself confidence and made me extremely self conscious. I had a terrible time giving presentations to coworkers at work because I knew they were staring and thinking wow he is OVERWEIGHT!
Now I am not saying I got laid off because I was overweight, but I am saying that although I was a good employee, I could of been an even better employee if I had the confidence that my weight took from me. I wanted to be able to say what I wanted to say and do things I wanted to do and not worry about what I looked like. This was rock bottom for me, its when I decided that I had to lose the weight if I wanted to accomplish the things I wanted out of life.

I didn't get serious about losing the weight until a few months later and that's when my journey started. So yes being laid off was an extreme blow to me, but at the same time it has saved my life. I have never in my life been so serious about changing my lifestyle. I am in a very good place physically and mentally, and the weight is coming off nicely. So I guess it true when they say things happen for a reason.

BTW: I am still looking for a job, if anyone has any leads please let me know. I have 2 years experience as a Project Engineer in the construction industry and am willing to relocate anywhere in the USA.

Also if you have job leads in industries other than construction please let me know also, I am willing to do anything at this point.

Email me with leads or for resume requests:

1 comment:

Sharon B. said...

Good luck on your search! I am glad you can see the positive out of a bleak situation.