So today I experienced a small victory! I used to dread going to get my haircut because 1.) I hated the fact that I had to squeeze into those small salon chairs and 2.) I hated looking at my bloated face in the mirror for those 15-20 minutes. So today when I got to the salon and sat down in the chair I noticed a huge difference! I easy fit in the chair and actually had alot of room to spare! Also I noticed how much my face has changed, I actually liked what I was seeing for a change. I swear the small victories are sometimes the most rewarding. I felt really good today.
The next victory that I want extremely bad is being able to fly worry free, flying haunts me in every way! I hate going to airports even to pick people up because I know people stare and hope that I am not sitting next to them on their flight. I haven't been on a plane in a little over a year and half. When I was working I used to have to travel alot so I was often dealing with my worst nightmares. I would often pay of pocket to upgrade to business class or first class so that I could avoid some embarrassment. Also since I am currently looking for work nationwide I am freaked out by the fact that I might have to fly to different parts of the country for interviews, I am down 88 lbs since the last time I flew but it still makes me extremely nervous.
I know one thing though, when I do reach that victory its going to be an amazing day!!