Sunday, February 27, 2011

Struggle is part of the journey...

I have been struggling lately... Really just battling with myself which is usual for me, but I have been losing lately. Being sick for most of last week really didn't help me either, I actually binged a few times which I hadn't done in awhile. My weight loss has been stagnant for months. I haven't gained an extreme amount and I haven't lost an extreme amount. I have hovered right around 400 lbs, I so want to break through that wall..... AGAIN. Its just seems like when I am killing my workouts I cheat with my eating and when I am doing great with my food I slack on workouts. To be honest I need to find balance with both, I think when I over do one I get burnt out and slack on the other. I definitely understand I need to maintain both to reach my goals.

I am not really frustrated just kind of disappointed with myself. I wasted so much of my life and when I see myself wasting more time I get upset with myself. Life is such I guess, just gotta roll with the punches and keep coming back for more. Giving up is not an option for me, my only option is to keep trying, and that's what I'll do.

Today was a good day. My eating was good, I didn't work out since I am still getting over my cold but I did do some things around the house. I had plenty of time to reflect and refocus my energy on whats important.

I am taking it one day at a time.



11 comments:

Bella said...

I wrote a post that is so similar to this one today, too. It's nice to know that I'm not alone, and I think that we've both got the drive and determination to get the goals accomplished.

Cathy Cox said...

((((Alan)))
It really is about finding the balance, and the struggle to find that balance is not wasted time - it's a necessity, a foundation builder. If you stay in the extremes through this journey, when you reach your goals you still won't know how to find balance between being healthy and fully LIVING. It's worth the time now - YOU are worth the time now to figure this out. And I know you will. You have professionals and this whole community full of peeps rooting for you :)

For what it's worth, when I started out this journey I didn't work out at all. I couldn't DO both, for the same reason. One would slack. So I made a decision to focus on the nutrition. I wanted to get SOLID on the nutrition and when that became my lifestyle, THEN I worked on slowly adding in the fitness side of things. I'm not saying that's the right approach for everyone, but don't feel alone in struggling to get both "right." You're making sweeping, huge changes and it's hard - but getting up every day and choosing to try more, try again, and keep coming to the table - you're on track as far as i can see :)

Fit B said...

Alan hang in there. You will find a balance, maybe find other activities you enjoy doing and it won't seem like such a chore to workout. I discovered I loved roller blading and started doing it over the summer. It was so fun for me I did not see it as a hard core workout but it burned a good amount of calories and helped me.

TJ said...

I faced a rough week last week and was up on the scale but I had to jump right back on. Never give up Alan! You are worth this fight!! :) Big HUGS! :)

Roo said...

It's a daily struggle. A daily decision to do what we need to do. I agree with the other comment, maybe focus on just nutrition for a while and scale back on workouts or vice versa so as not to be so overwhelmed. You can do this!

Molly said...

I'm on the same boat as you Alan, hoovering around 198-200 lbs. It's not fun when you don't see a significant loss. But remember your becoming a healthier person and the pounds will come off eventually. :)

Nancy said...

That's right, Alan: don't give up! You just keep on working on it one day at a time, and one piece at a time. Your posts are very inspiring, and yet your readers can relate to you because we struggle too. Don't forget to give yourself credit for all the good things you're doing, too (like posting about your struggles, which is very brave and even more inspiring). And never mind about water under the bridge; this is now, this is life! You can do this! And I can't wait to say "I told you so" later! 8-)

Paula said...

Alan,

Thank you for sharing this. I don't feel alone in my own struggle. I have been binge eating the past couple of weeks and NO workouts. I don't know how to control it.. wait, I'm lying yes I do. I am afraid that if I find a way to deal with my anxiety I will pick up another habit.

Mike said...

"Own it, learn from it, get over it, get on with it."

Advice I have had to give myself in a recent post. One of the things that lets me keep balanced is to have a deficit goal for calories. It's the only way I can keep myself in check. When I slack with that goal, the scale lets me know it. Look forward to following your progress.
Starting at 500 Pounds

Skinny Jeans Gal said...

Here from www.startingat500pounds.com. Your newest follower. Your post is the truth. No lying to yourself. Have you ever been on a balance beam? Try it. It is not easy to balance, but with practice you can find the center of balance and walk the line. Same with your exercise and eating. Find the balance between the two. Keep it up! ~Karlie

D... said...

Just blog hopped and came across your page, thought I'd say hello. This post is exactly where I am at the moment, trying to concentrate on the food and emotions part feels like all I can do right now.