Thursday, June 30, 2011
My protective shield....
If you asked most people what they see in the picture above they would say a worn out sweatshirt. If you asked me I would say its my protective shield.
That sweatshirt has been with me since I decided to lose the weight in May 2009. If I was in the gym you can bet I was wearing it. It started out with long sleeves and a hood, and when I first bought it , it was also kind of tight fitting but I wore it anyway. I remember the first day I walked into the gym I wore it and worked out with my hood up over my head, I didn't want to make eye contact with anyone in the gym. I hid my face inside it for months, I hid my body, I hid the desperation in my eyes.
As I started losing weight I stopped wearing the hood over my head and eventually I cut it off, I didn't want to hide my face anymore. As I started to incorporate weight lifting into my routine I decided to cut the sleeves off, I wanted to see my muscles as I worked them.
I have had that sweatshirt for over two years now and like I said before I have worn it for 99% of my workouts (yes I am always washing it). It used to be a lot tighter than it is now but I still haven't been able to part with it, I still wear it for all my workouts in the gym. Part of me wants to retire it but another part of me stills need it to protect me and I am ok with that for right now. I know when the time is right I will let it go....
Do you have any protective shields??