Tuesday, September 13, 2011

I Didn't Hear No Bell...

I feel like I have written this exact blog post a million times. About two months ago I hurt my back and I was basically out of the gym for a solid four weeks resting my back. Did I enjoy sitting out for that period of time? No, but I really had no choice. During that time I did my best to concentrate on my food and nutrition since that was really all I could do, and lets be honest it was a daily battle.

Fast forward to one month ago my back is all healed up and I am ready to get back in the gym! I start back with my workouts but I felt drained, no motivation and overall just fed up. My confidence was way down, I started to feel extremely self conscious in the gym again and I started skipping workouts. When I start to slack in the gym I usually start to slack on my nutrition and from there it just snow balls. The worse thing for me is down time. Once I am out of my routine for an extended period of time its always a bloody battle for me to get back into it.

 Another thing I lose during down time is my confidence! When I am in the gym I need that confidence, I need to be able to walk around the gym like I own the place, I need to be able to look all the fit people in the eye and say YES I am using that and NO I am not done. Of course nobody likes a cocky A-Hole in the gym but internally I need that edge because if I have that 1 ounce of uncertainty in myself then I wont give it my all.

For me.... right now..... at this time....... my food choices and workouts go hand in hand. When one is missing the other suffers. I cant explain why but I just know thats how my mind and body operate at the moment.

Like I said before I feel like I have written this exact blog post a million times, maybe it takes a million and one times, or maybe a million and two or three? I don't know the answer but I know I will keep writing it for as long as I need to. 


Picking myself up...... You are not starting over Alan you are just getting back in the boxing ring..... you didn't hear a bell did you? Didn't think so!




10 comments:

Jillian said...

I'm SO glad you wrote this post. I've been feeling exactly the same way about my gym right now. I had a great gym, with really supportive members and staff--but I moved cross country. Now I'm stuck at a Gold's Gym with the dudes on steroids and the girls who are just showing up for the tanning beds and to flirt. Vomit. Anyway, I've been REALLY self conscious since I joined. I haven't been that great about going--but tomorrow, I'll get back in there and bust out my running program training.

Let's push through it together, yeah?

Alan said...

YES!!

Jillian said...

haha, I'll be twitter stalking you tomorrow to check on how your calories went...and you'd better be making sure my lazy butt went to the gym.

Alan said...

emailed you!

Skinny Emmie said...

go get it, my friend!

Fat Girl vs. World said...

My ringside timer goes for either 2 or 3 minute rounds. The GREEN light/bell signals that the round beings. The YELLOW light/bell signals that there is 30 seconds left. The RED light/bell signals the end of the round.

I can't tell you how many times people think the 30-second reminder is the final bell. They drop their guard, and that's when you end up hitting them right in the nose.

There's a metaphor in there somewhere.

sharla @ 262milejourney said...

I'm with you. I needed some recovery time after Ragnar (just for blisters). Then it snowballed into a major case of the lazies (not like you). In the last 3 weeks I've been sick and it has migrated into my lungs and I so desperately want to run but it's going to be so ugly that I'm a little afraid to get back up on the horse. But today is the day. Even if it's just a mile. So thank you for posting this.

I'm the same way with the all-or-nothing. When I'm working out I just crave better foods and I don't even have to think about drinking water. When I'm laid up on the couch for whatever reason, I eat garbage (and I don't even know where my water bottle is right now).

Amy said...

Hey you... got your twitter bing. Things have been crazy and I needed to focus more time IRL than on the social things. Look forward to catching up!

I am in a similar spot to you. I didn't heal the best after my last race and have spent the last month just doing the lunges etc ... no cardio and no heavy weights. It's catching up more to my routine and what my mind thinks I can do rather then my body. I just try to map out how many times I have to get moving again to recreate the habit on a calendar b/c we all have this issue a million times.

Sending you lots of cheering and motivation.
Amy

jm @ inspiration for weight loss said...

Hi there! I'm a new follower and this post I can really relate to. I have a Y gym membership but am so reluctant to go and work out. It's crazy but I feel so self conscious, I keep thinking well, I'll go when I've lost 5 pounds or 10 pounds etc. This has to stop, I need to just do it!

ragemichelle said...

MAN!! I needed to read this. I've been waylaid by injury and illness all Summer.

We just gotta keep going. It ain't the end of the world...