My choice to fight obesity and take back my health has been a rocky road, as it is for most people. I love the fight, I love the results, I love how I feel, and I love when I am in control. In my case my battle has somewhat caused me to cut off a lot of people in my life. I mean I have friends and family but I don't see them that often, my healthy lifestyle doesn't seem to sync with theirs. I never realized how much food is such a center of attention on a lot of social scenes until I started trying to lose weight. It's always "hey lets go out to dinner" or "lets grab lunch", etc. I often decline these offers because for me.. right now... I need to stay away from those environments. I hate that I have to make that choice but its not an option, and its not easy. At the same time it's not easy living life at 400 plus pounds, its not easy to look at myself in the mirror, and it's not easy to face the world in this body.
I don't lie or make up excuses about why I don't want to go out, I just tell people the truth...that's the bottom line. A lot of times the response I get is "well you can start your diet tomorrow", actually no I cant. I don't want to start tomorrow, next week, or next year. I spent most of my adult life telling myself I'll start tomorrow, eventually tomorrow becomes never. I proudly choose to start today.
I am thankful for the people who understand my decisions, I don't mean to be rude or anti social, I just want to reach my goals and I wont let anybody get in my way. Thankfully my immediate family understands my situation, they know when I say no it's because I want to live. You choose to spend your nights as you wish... if you need me you can find me in the gym.