Thank you for always being there for me...

This post is to all the people in the fitfluential, fitblog, fitbloggin, and many more. 


Today was my birthday, we wont go into how old I am :)  But I did want to say that I am so touched by all the birthday wishes I have received from everyone on twitter and facebook. I wanted to write a post to thank all the people who I have met through facebook and twitter, many of you have made a huge difference in my life.

I have never really been a big birthday person, mostly because for most of my life a birthday was just a reminder of another year of failure in the weight loss department. Things are a little different know. I'll be honest and say I am not anywhere near where I want to be yet but I haven't given up for the last two years, and I wont ever give up. I made the commitment in May 2009 that I was going to finally lose the weight, the road since then has been bumpy but my engine is still full of gas and to me that is a huge win. In the years before 2009 I always gave up after a few weeks of trying and I always hated myself for it.

The difference in my life now is even though I may have a bad day, week, or month I always pick myself up and keep moving forward. It's hard for me to admit that I need people, it's hard for me to reach out and say I need your help. For most of my life I haven't had anybody to lean on, I have always had to figure things out on my own and just hope for the best. I can proudly say that I have survived almost all the situations that life has thrown at me. The one thing I haven't been able to do on my own is lose the weight. Like I said before it's not easy for me to say I need people but honestly I need all of you. My life has been drastically changed in a positive way by you. I try to always have a game face on but I struggle just like anyone else. Some days I want to quit, just give up, skip workouts, binge eat, etc. On the bad days I often think of many of you. I see your faces in my head, I hear your voices in my ear, and I think about your battles and all that you all have been through and that's when the switch goes off in my head. I tell myself Alan you can do this, Alan you are not alone, Alan you WILL do this. I no longer ask myself if I can do this, I know I can and I am.

I have lost most of my old friends since I started this journey. Unfortunately I was forced to choose between their friendship or a healthy lifestyle, and its obvious what I have chosen. You all have become my friends and my family in a way. I rely on you more than you know. I just wanted to say thank you from the bottom of my heart for always being there for me, I hope you know that I am always here for you.

Alan

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