This post is to all the people in the fitfluential, fitblog, fitbloggin, and many more.
Today was my birthday, we wont go into how old I am :) But I did want to say that I am so touched by all the birthday wishes I have received from everyone on twitter and facebook. I wanted to write a post to thank all the people who I have met through facebook and twitter, many of you have made a huge difference in my life.
I have never really been a big birthday person, mostly because for most of my life a birthday was just a reminder of another year of failure in the weight loss department. Things are a little different know. I'll be honest and say I am not anywhere near where I want to be yet but I haven't given up for the last two years, and I wont ever give up. I made the commitment in May 2009 that I was going to finally lose the weight, the road since then has been bumpy but my engine is still full of gas and to me that is a huge win. In the years before 2009 I always gave up after a few weeks of trying and I always hated myself for it.
The difference in my life now is even though I may have a bad day, week, or month I always pick myself up and keep moving forward. It's hard for me to admit that I need people, it's hard for me to reach out and say I need your help. For most of my life I haven't had anybody to lean on, I have always had to figure things out on my own and just hope for the best. I can proudly say that I have survived almost all the situations that life has thrown at me. The one thing I haven't been able to do on my own is lose the weight. Like I said before it's not easy for me to say I need people but honestly I need all of you. My life has been drastically changed in a positive way by you. I try to always have a game face on but I struggle just like anyone else. Some days I want to quit, just give up, skip workouts, binge eat, etc. On the bad days I often think of many of you. I see your faces in my head, I hear your voices in my ear, and I think about your battles and all that you all have been through and that's when the switch goes off in my head. I tell myself Alan you can do this, Alan you are not alone, Alan you WILL do this. I no longer ask myself if I can do this, I know I can and I am.
I have lost most of my old friends since I started this journey. Unfortunately I was forced to choose between their friendship or a healthy lifestyle, and its obvious what I have chosen. You all have become my friends and my family in a way. I rely on you more than you know. I just wanted to say thank you from the bottom of my heart for always being there for me, I hope you know that I am always here for you.