Thursday, November 29, 2012

One of Those Weeks...

No real easy way to say this but I had a really bad week last week. I knew it was Thanksgiving and I knew I would be out of town most of the week but I didn't expect to feel so unmotivated. The first part of the week I was just getting over a sinus infection and hadn't really done much for a few days. I started to feel better on Tuesday but the feelings of not wanting to do anything really didn't go away all week.

Wednesday afternoon my Mama, Sister, and I all piled into my truck and headed north to spend Thanksgiving with my Sister who lives in Baltimore. I woke up Thursday morning and started my Thanksgiving with a workout. My Coach Amer wanted me to take a week off from weightlifting to give my body a break so I just went for a 4 mile walk that morning. While on my walk I told myself that I was going to enjoy a nice meal that night with my family and not freak out about calories and food choices, I just wanted to enjoy being with my family without constantly thinking about what I was going to eat and what I should and shouldn't eat. That is exactly what I did and I enjoyed it, we had a wonderful time together. 

The problem was that my care free attitude and unmotivated feelings carried through to Friday. I did wake up Friday Morning and get a quick workout in. Honestly I wanted to stop about 10 minutes into the workout but I kept going but that was my last workout of the week. Food wise I really didn't watch was I was eating, I mean I knew what I was doing and exactly what I was eating but I just didn't stop myself. There is really no excuse for it at all, in the past I would say "Oh I am out of town and its hard to controls what I eat", That was an EXCUSE. The truth is I chose not to eat the right foods, I chose not to workout, I chose to have that bad week. 

With all that being said I did not have a weigh in this week. I never really weigh myself after a road trip anyways because I always retain additional water when I travel and after the week I had I am glad I didn't weigh in. I know I had a gain, I am not OK with it but I am also not going to beat myself up over having a bad week. It's happened to me before and as I have in the past I will get through it. The gain is not what really upsets me the most, the fact that I felt like I was out of control with my food is what upsets me. It's been a good while since I have felt that out of control feeling.

Last night I called Amer to talk about last week and he said something that stood out to me, he said "You know what you have to do and you know how to do it". He is 100% right about that! I know exactly how to turn things back around in the right direction and thankfully I have done so this week. I am back to my normal workouts and eating the foods I need to be eating. I am not sure what the scale has in store for me this week but no matter happens I will keep moving forward. I always tell myself I don't need perfection, I just need a winning record...






7 comments:

Anonymous said...

I love how honest you are, not just with your reader's but also with yourself. I understand the disappointment of not making the right choices, and I admire that you recognize it and have gotten right back on plan. I love seeing your progress! Completely, not weight loss related and I'm sure you hear it often, but you are so handsome!

Big Life, Little Blog said...

I think this is all part of the process. If you don't have slip ups from time to time, you don't learn how they feel or how to bounce back from them. Just keep on keeping on and you'll be fine!

OneThickChick said...

Thank you for sharing your struggle. It's so real. It's not as if someone decides to be healthy and then magically it happens- the before picture/after picture culture is not supportive of the in between. It's these ten-thousand little battles and victories that lead to overall success. You inspire me with your honesty and dedication. I like the quote "I'm not telling you it's going to be easy, I'm telling you it's going to be worth it"

Kovas Palubinskas said...

One of the best things about knowing what to do is that you can do it - forget last week and move on!

Erin W said...

Always insightful and honest, never sugarcoated. You are always so on point with your posts. Hope this week is better for you! I know you will succeed.

healthygrrl.com said...

Hey Alan I found you through Skinny Emmie. COngrats on the 105 pound loss. The graphic you posted said it best for me. I am my problem and my solution. I quoted it over on my blog with a link back to you. Wishing you and yours a wonderful holiday season.

SeattleRunnerGirl said...

AMEN to not needing perfection. None of us are perfect. What we do for a day (or three) once or twice a year doesn't dictate our success; our choices and habits day in and day out the REST of the year controls the outcome. Good for you for owning up to a rough week, NOT beating yourself up about it, and moving on.