Wednesday, December 25, 2013

Just A Walk

This afternoon I was lucky enough to take a walk with my Mama, just the two of us. We hadn't planned on walking today but I stopped by her house to visit while I waited for the gym to open and she wanted to go for a walk so I decided to join her and then head to the gym.

Honestly I always enjoy our walks. We talk about old memories, things going on in the world, the future and really just anything that crosses our mind. Today about halfway through our walk my Mama told me I remember a few years ago when we would walk you could barely keep up with me. She said she always felt bad because I would usually fall behind. Honestly I remember those days, I remember trying to keep up with her felt like I was running. I remember telling her to go on, that I would catch up. It just feels so crazy that today my Mama was telling me to slow down, of course I would never leave her behind.

I enjoyed sharing that moment with my Mama. I know she has always worried about me and my weight and seeing her worries eased a little more each day means a lot to me. Most people don't know this but there was a long period of my childhood in which my Mama and I were separated (long story) but I feel that she is getting to see me grow up now, just in a different way. 

Us after our walk, she insists on standing on the curb so she doesn't look so short lol 

Monday, December 23, 2013

I Just Want To Eat

Tonight I just want to eat. Eat everything. Eat all my frustrations in the world away. Somedays I forget that I am an emotional eater, some days I don't think about it and some days it hits me like a ton of bricks. Some days I forget why I started this blog. At first it wasn't about sharing my story. I just wanted a place to escape, a place to let things out. 

Tonight I just want to eat but I won't. I refuse to, not tonight. I will fight it, I will clean or do something else instead. I may lose the fight some days but I won't tonight, I won't let myself, I need to win tonight. 

I just wanted to let it out. 

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Motivation... How To Keep It

I get emails everyday... Everyone wants to know how I stay motivated so let me share a few things that help me! Keep in mind it has taken me years to get to these realizations and that even though you might not be ready to adopt some of them today that doesn't mean you wont be in the future. 

Number 1: No matter how much weight you have to lose stop focusing on the overall number! When I weighed 480 lbs thinking about how much weight I needed to lose was a very daunting and stressful task! Focus on small goals! For example if you are trying to lose 100 lbs trying breaking it into small milestones like 25 lbs at a time. This mental technique has been HUGE in helping me avoiding the mental walls that make us want to give up.

Number 2: WRITE DOWN YOUR GOALS and read them OFTEN! This is SO important! I want you all to write down 5-10 goals that you can work on and when you check one off your list as completed replace it with another! I recommend choosing some goals that do not involve a number on a scale. For example maybe you want to run a mile non stop? Maybe you want to be able to do a certain yoga pose? It can be anything you want!! Write these goals down and put them in a place you can see them often! Seeing them everyday will help you stay motivated!

Number 3: Some might not like this one but it really helps me. Buy a few articles of clothing that do NOT fit! I have a section of clothes in my closet that I call my "inspiration clothes". Basically when I see a shirt or something that I REALLY like and it doesn't fit I buy it anyways and hang it in my closet. There will be period in your journey where the scale does not budge but your body will  still be changing! This is when these clothes are going to help keep you motivated because maybe when you bought the t-shirt it didn't fit but there will be a day when it does and let me tell you that feeling far surpasses any feeling I have felt from seeing a number on the scale.

Number 4: This is hard one and it wont come overnight. Stop beating yourself up and start loving yourself! I want you to love your past self, present self, and future self. Let me tell you it absolutely breaks my heart when I see people picking on their old or current overweight self, calling themselves "Gross" "Nasty" "Fatty".... WHY? There are all of these weight loss "formulas" out there that state weight loss is this "percentage nutrition and this percentage workouts" but all that aside let me tell you it is 100% mental. The self abuse and hate has got to stop! I know that easier said then done. Whether you are just starting your journey or well on your way please realize that your beginning does not have to be your ending. That your self worth is not defined by any number on the scale. You are a person and you deserve to be happy and loved. If you can work on this one I promise things will come easier down the road.

Number 5: Enjoy the journey because this is where you are going to learn the most about yourself. You will need these lessons learned to help you for the rest of your life in all aspects of your life. This is your time..... LIVE IT

Thursday, October 24, 2013

Tough Mudder GoPro Footage!

I haven't had a chance to do my Tough Mudder Recep yet but Roni my friend and teammate is awesome and put this video together with some footage from our race!

Thursday, October 17, 2013

The Things I Never Thought I Would Do...

It's 10:26 pm on Thursday night and I have yet to pack for my 5:30 am flight (Better get on that, in all fairness I did throw in a load of laundry). Tomorrow morning I take off for Lexington, KY to join my team for a Tough Mudder Race on Saturday.

It's been in the front of my mind all week but it really just hit me that I am really doing this, I am taking on this challenge! I spent most of the evening with my family, we had dinner and hung out a bit before I had to say bye to everyone and head home to pack. They were all curious about what exactly the race entailed and I think after explaining most of them think I am a little crazy (in a good way lol). On a site note I think I have totally convinced a handful of family members to try a Tough Mudder in 2014 with me!

Anyways on the way home from my Mama's house I kind of got a little emotional about the whole thing. I still can't believe I am doing this, I never thought in a million years I would ever do something like this! My whole weight loss journey started in 2009 and its been a very long and bumpy road. I realize my weight loss has been slow, steady, but slow. I have no complaints about that, I have kept off the weight as I have gone along and to me that is worth so much more than losing it quickly. Losing it slowly has given my mind and body a chance to keep up with the changes that have come with the weight loss, in my opinion that has been a huge part of why I have been able to keep off what I have lost so far.

My goal for this race is to face a few fears and to just have fun! I am not anywhere near the weight range I want to be in but I realized that today I am living the life that I always wanted to live and that is magical.

I Signed Up For A What?!

Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Dietbet - MAY Last Call!

Last call to join my Dietbet for the month of May! What is it you ask? It's a bet against yourself that you will lose 4% of your body weight in 28 days. The buy in is $15 and all the winners split the pot at the end of the bet. Last month my group of betters lost over 420 lbs!

Lets ROCK May together! Today is the last day to sign up for the May bet!

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Friday, April 26, 2013

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Confession of a Binge Eater

There are people in my life who I love more than anything in this world and when something bad happens to them it kills me inside. I literally shut down and it feels as if my whole world has been flipped upside down. When I find myself in this whirlwind of emotions I also tend to crave food, LOTS  of food. Not because I am hungry or because I am having a typical craving. It's because I want that fear and pain I feel inside to go away and when I eat myself into a food coma I temporarily feel better. I am a binge eater, there is no other way to put it. Tonight I felt these feelings and fighting them is no easy battle. The voices in my head tell me to EAT EAT EAT and I am telling them NO NO NO. I am not hungry! Binge eating is something I have been battling for a long time. Thankfully for the last few years I have been in control for the most part but it's definitely been mentally exhausting. I have no solution for my issues with food, I can only take it day by day and fight as hard as I can. Tonight I fought a battle, instead of eating food I called a friend and just talked. I didn't talk about my urges to eat, we just talked that normal day to day type stuff and after awhile I felt better.

Today I won, I am thankful for that.

Friday, February 8, 2013

Weight Loss Success Story - Alyssa!

Another success story!  I met Alyssa on Instagram and I am truly blown away by her transformation! You can find her on Instagram at @electricfitness and please check out her AMAZING blog at Reverent Lion where she shares a lot of great recipes! 

1. Why did you decide to change your lifestyle to a more healthy one & lose weight?
At work I was sitting for 12+ hours at a time and I distinctly remember sitting in my office chair one afternoon and looking down and realizing that I didn't recognize the legs that were in the chair! I had let my body and mind spin out of control.  I stood up to try and shake the thoughts from my mind and as I stood up my legs felt as if they were creaking from underuse and under the excess weight I had taken on, and my head felt faint and dizzy.  I had not only let my eating and weight get out of control, I had lost control of my health as well.  It was at that moment, 6:46 PM on a Wednesday afternoon (I remember exactly) that I resolved to make a lifestyle change.

2. How and what changes did you make?
That night when I got home from work, I began my research.  I resolved that I would not follow any fad diets or the latest quick fix fitness trend.  I wanted to know exactly which foods were the best nutrient rich fuel for my body and which types of exercise were best in my current state of health.  Everyone's body is different and I recognized that, I wanted to do what was best for my body.  After I put together my plan, I consulted my doctor and got to work. I enjoy a plethora of plant based foods, I avoid chemicals in my foods, and I love to get moving every single day.  No excuses, it is my life, part of who I am!  

3. What have been the hardest and easiest parts of this journey?
In my opinion the journey to health takes consistency, dedication, and patience. The hardest part, hands down, is patience. It is for this reason that we often see marketing campaigns advertising the "quick fix" the "magic pill" or "super fruit" that will give you the shortcut to the perfect body you have always wanted.  It doesn't exist.  You have to come up with a LIFE plan that you can commit to for the rest of your life and then have the patience to let your body show you the results of your consistency and dedication.  My transformation took about one year, which to many people seems fast, but its still a year! I had to be patient with myself, I didn't have a my dream body in two weeks.

4. How has your life changed?
My energy has skyrocketed, I have lost about 60 lbs, I no longer suffer from multiple health issues that were vexing me this time last year.  Not only have I noticed these effects in my life, but I have been able to notice these changes in those closest to me who have no choice but to eat my food and have also adopted a consistent fitness regimen! That has been the best part for me, I find so much joy in seeing those who I love healthy and happy!

5. What advice would you give to others trying to become more healthy?
Do your research.  We live in an age of technology, there are so many resources available to us.  FInd what works best for you, avoid the quick fixes.  Most importantly, be patient with yourself! Our bodies are truly amazing complex organisms, you will be surprised at how your body responds to a long term nutrient rich diet and consistent working out.  Let your body show you what it needs.  We only get one body, and therefore it is priceless. Make the 
decision to take better care of it than you would a irreplaceable jewel or fancy car!

Thursday, February 7, 2013

New Progress Pictures!

So it's been awhile since I had anyone take some progress shots of me. I usually take them on my own with my iPhone but I needed a high quality headshot for the Designer Whey Newsletter I was going to be featured in and honestly it was just time! I didn't get a chance to take a full body shot because the pants I had on were too big and besides that it was freezing outside, I hope to take some full body ones soon to do some comparisons.

I honestly didn't believe it was me in the pictures, I hope you enjoy them. Also special thanks to my sister for taking the time to take these for me! :-)

This is my picture at my highest weight: 480 lbs

This is me at 364 lbs:

Monday, January 21, 2013

Weekly Check In - 1/21/2013

I have a special guest at the end of the video so make sure you watch!