Monday, December 23, 2013

I Just Want To Eat

Tonight I just want to eat. Eat everything. Eat all my frustrations in the world away. Somedays I forget that I am an emotional eater, some days I don't think about it and some days it hits me like a ton of bricks. Some days I forget why I started this blog. At first it wasn't about sharing my story. I just wanted a place to escape, a place to let things out. 

Tonight I just want to eat but I won't. I refuse to, not tonight. I will fight it, I will clean or do something else instead. I may lose the fight some days but I won't tonight, I won't let myself, I need to win tonight. 

I just wanted to let it out. 

9 comments:

Kirsten said...

I'm not doing a successful job of resisting. Maybe tomorrow. Go team.

Anonymous said...

I wish I had read this earlier. I might have made some better choices. But I'm still happy I read it. At least I know I am not crazy

Eesh said...

I feel the exact same way! This season is really doing it to me!

xo
Eesh
The Other Side of Paradise

Jody - Fit at 56 said...

I was where you are at one point... you rock Alan & such an inspiration to many!!!! Thank you for being REAL all the time! Merry Christmas to you & your family!!!! AND.. even after all my years, I have many times I still fight the emotional eating battle.... you are not alone!

Tiffany said...

I've been lost in the just wanting to eat zone lately...I've let that little voice win that says, "Why fight it, it's the holidays, start fresh Jan. 1!" But putting a stop to that today. I can make better choices and still enjoy some holiday treats, it is madness to continue this way for the next week. Thanks for being strong, Alan, and never giving up the fight!

Amanda @ Click. The Good News said...

Just wanted to send some HUGS your way. I totally admire your strength & courage, even in the moments when you don't feel like you have any. I really hope that just writing it down & getting it out helped you conquer. Merry Christmas! :)

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Emil said...

I've been through those kind of days myself. Keep your motivation and you will succeed. No doubt!

James Weight Loss Blog said...

Keep up the good fight friend, hope you win this battle and so many others going forward. Losing weight can be a very tough campaign to fight but the rewards are worth it.