Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Losing my mind.... just a little bit.

You see about a week and a half ago I started feeling ill at work, you know the chills and body aches, all the fun stuff. So I went to the doctor and they said it's probably bronchitis, that was on a Friday. They gave me my meds and I went home to rest for the weekend. The next day I felt worse, and on Sunday I felt like death! Monday rolled around and I called the Doctor and said I feel really bad, I need to come back in. The nurse said you know lets just prescribe some more meds and see how you feel..... UM NO, how about I come back in and get reevaluated?  seriously I hate being on meds in general!

So I go back in and badda bing badda boom I am in the early stages of pneumonia! Honestly I had no idea what it was other than I remember my Mama getting it when I was really young and she had to be hospitalized. So I get a steroid treatment, new meds, and an inhaler. Oh and by the way you will need 2-3 weeks to fully recover and you can't workout until then.

Insert my wth face.

Then I remembered I had a Triathlon a week way which I was going to have to pull out of. I had organically planned to do the whole race but then switched to a relay team since the race was in the middle of Ramadan but I still wanted to experience my first open water swim. Honestly what I am most frustrated about is the forced inactivity. It's not even about weight loss it's just that working has become part of my life. I enjoy it and it helps keep me grounded in life. On top of that I have been eating horribly for the last week and half. Real talk here, sorry but when I am sick the last thing I am thinking about is eating sensibly.

At the same time all this laying around has given me a lot of time to think about my life and where it is headed. There are just a lot of things I am not happy about it in my life. I don't complain about them on Facebook or anything like that because that's just not my style. I share a lot about my life to the online world but there is another huge part of me that I keep to myself because that is just how I am wired. I have a hard time asking for help or reaching out to others because there were so many times when all I had was myself to rely on and I just had to deal with it.

Anyways I am just rambling now. My Doctor actually just called me a few minutes ago to check up on me and I told her I was losing it. I asked her if I could just do some light walking? She said yes as long as I was feeling ok. I have the rest of this week to finish my meds and then I need 4-5 days of being off of them before I can resume my normal type activity.

Did I mention I have a Tough Mudder Race in Canada in 24 days?! More on that later!

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Fitbloggin...The Magic Never Stops!

Well my friends another year has passed and Fitbloggin 2014 has come and gone. I am not great at recaps and after last years recap disaster I don't think I can muster the energy to attempt another so I will just share some random thoughts.

 What disaster? Well you see last year I had this beautifully gorgeous mother of all recap that I had been working on for 2-3 weeks and then it magically disappeared, gone, never to be seen again! I literally felt sick to my stomach and I almost puked I was so upset! So this is why we aren't going that route again!

My Tribe!
This conference means so much more than what people see on the surface. You can easily see the selection of sessions you can attend, list of sponsors, the SWAG is very visible, and possibly the list of guest appearances by big name people. Believe me those are all great things but this conference for me is about the relationships, this is why I keep coming back year after year.

 I have never in my life met so many amazing people in one setting. Things happen at Fitbloggin that change the course of people lives FOREVER, and one of the most beautiful things about it is that it just happens naturally! It's amazing to be sitting there and hear somebody say something and then notice a light bulb go off across the room in someones head. It amazing to just sit back and watch people connect and share their struggle, failures and realize that they aren't alone!

I have said this before and I will keep saying it, this conference, community, tribe, whatever you want you call it has changed my life. I showed up at this conference 2011 with a fear of not being accepted. I had a hard time looking people in the eye and I just wanted to be there without really being there. This year was the most comfortable I have ever felt, not because past years gave me a reason to be uncomfortable but because I am slowly evolving into who I want to be and that just takes times.

I wont even lie..... I love having a mic in my hand lol 

Fitbloggin 2014 is over but the magic that it creates NEVER stops. My challenge to all of you is to privately reach out to at least 3 people from the conference who in some way made an impression on you. I do this every year because I feel it's important to let people know how they made you feel. You never know what someone is going through and hearing something like that can also help them. No need to share with us who they are or why you chose them (unless you really want to).

Thank you all for letting me be a part of your lives. I will forever pay it forward as best I can.