I look back to about 4 years ago when I first decided I wanted to lose weight and get healthy, I figured it would a year or two and I would be done. I thought I would have reached some magical number on the scale and everything would be GREAT. But here I am 4 years later still fighting on a daily basis with my weight. I know people look at me and think everything is going great for him and don't get me wrong for the most part it is, I am very lucky and blessed to be in a good place right now. But what people don't see is my internal struggle, the demons I fight on a daily basis, they don't see how mentally tired I am….. I am flat out exhausted inside.
I ended 2014 weighing more than I did when I started the year…. it's been a tough year in the weight loss spectrum. About 5-6 months into 2014 I accepted the fact that my body was fighting off giving up any more weight and I had a hard decision to make. Continue with what I was doing and hoping it got better or simply give my body a break from "dieting" all together. It was hard to choose, of course I wanted to continue losing weight right away, I didn't want to wait, time doesn't stop.
Ultimately I ended up making the decision of taking a "dieting" break. What does that mean? Mainly that I would be focusing at eating at a maintenance level. Slowly increasing my eating week to week towards a maintenance level and trying to eat enough to not gain or lose weight. Let me tell you this was a very scary concept at first! Eating more than I had in a long time freaked me out. Mentally it was hard working out 5-6 days a week and knowing that there would be no loss on the scale, it was really a learning experience in the art of patience. This has been my life for the last 6 months of 2014. They have been hard and I did end up gaining about 15 lbs in a controlled manner. I am at the point now where I think I am ready to try and start losing again.
The hardest part of all of this is that my current body is not allowing me to do all the physical things I want to do. It's a hard a realization when my mind is like "yes, let do this!" but my body literally tells me "NO, not yet Alan". And that's ok…. I will be patient with myself. I will get to do all the things I want to do one day, I know this…. because I won't accept anything less than that…. I refuse.
Now with all that being said I did do some really awesome things in 2014! One of my biggest goals for the year was to push myself out of my comfort zone and that I DID! I completed my first half marathon, finished my second Tough Mudder Race (I retired from TM afterwards, at least for now), and I BECAME A TRIATHLETE! To say I have fallen in love with the sport of triathlon is an understatement. I love everything about it, the excitement, the challenge, the pain, the people….. I feel like the sport has changed me, its given me a huge boost of confidence in myself, it's made me fearless in a way! It has also opened my world to whole new group of amazing people. They have accepted me as I am, they have embraced me, and more than anything they believe in me. They have been the best part of 2014 for me, they made my year.
I have a lot of plans for 2015.. My story continues!
See the summary of my races from 2014 below! Thank YOU for your continued support and inspiration! My success is a direct result of the amazing people I have surrounded myself with…. Yes that means YOU!
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|Commitment Day 5K|
|Sampson County Super Sprint Triathlong (MY FIRST TRI(|
|Rock N Roll Raleigh - Half Marathon|
|Cary Duathlon - Short Course|
|Smile Train - Sprint Triathlon|
|Mayo Lake - Sprint Triathlon|
|Tough Mudder - Toronto|
|Rex Wellness Knightdale - Sprint Triathlon|
|Inside Out Sports - 8k Turkey Trot|